An open letter to someone in particular who may or may not read it.

November 21, 2008 at 7:20 pm (Uncategorized)

I had known you in a professional relationship for about 9 months.

I can’t say I didn’t look forward to my appointments because from the minute I saw you I thought you were darn cute and loved flirting with you.

One day after work you took me out for coffee and to my surprise you told me you wanted to stay friends when our professional relationship was over. This really blew me away because I was not expecting that from you.

Now, that professional relationship is over and I feel that something has happened to change your mind and you no longer want to continue seeing me.

I wish I knew what happened because you seemed so keen, and although I had liked you and flirted with you, I certainly never thought you would be interested in me. So, if you hadn’t put this thought in my mind I wouldn’t be where I am now.

Why did you get my hopes up only to now ignore/forget about me?

Unfortunately I don’t know you well enough to judge, and I don’t know the complications of your life and whether that had something to do with it, but I am left feeling confused.

I am not angry with you because I don’t know what happened.

You certainly seemed genuine but now I am hurt.

Is it something I did or said when I sent you that text the other day?

Perhaps you just didn’t want to hear from me at all.

I just really wish I knew the truth. That is all I ask for. Honesty.

I will not contact you again.The ball is in your court, and if I don’t hear from you soon I guess I know that something that never really began is already over.

Me xxxxx


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Not much to say today…

November 16, 2008 at 12:31 am (Uncategorized)


but I thought you might like some up to date photos of me.

So here are a couple I took today.

It was very very hot today, lucky I have air con.

Then we had a huge thunderstorm and Truffles came in afterwards soaking wet!

I haven\’t got any news at the moment nor have I done anything creative.

But as soon as I do I will let you know.

Meanwhile, I hope all my friends out there are happy, healthy and safe.

Love Me xxxxx

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November 1, 2008 at 11:35 pm (Uncategorized)


Hey everyone,

I am trying to write this blog again and hope that stoopid Yahoo works.

Firstly I am sorry to everyone that I have been so busy and unable to blog much. Some of you may know I am not doing my normal job at the moment I am working on the Uni\’s news broadcast (if you want to read about that you can do that here and here) which means I have to work harder and later than I normally do and its a lot more stressful.

Anyway, yesterday I had a bit of a melt down but Pam managed to calm me down and we were having a little street party for the kids and that took my mind off things for a while.

I guess everything has just become a bit overwhelming.

My court case should be finalised by the end of the month and I should have my mothers house back so I can sell it and finally move on with my life.

While I have been working down at the tv studios managment up the hill where I normally work have been being difficult and seems to be taking more and more of our work away from us to the point where Pam and I really don\’t know what we will be doing anymore.

Things are so tense up there normally I would be looking forward to going back but I don\’t know if I am to tell the truth.

There are also a few other things waiting in the wings that I can\’t talk about here at the moment but will tell you if they happen.

So I guess I am a bit stressed out. I had a good cry yesterday. I know that sometimes helps.

At least my horoscope for next week sounds good.

Fellow Capricorns read away:

Your Week Ahead: Be comforted. And be loved. You deserve both experiences. And both are on offer. The world is not the harsh place you have lately begun to see it as. It is, rather, a place of contrasts and extremes. Having been to one end of the scale, you now need to visit the other. But even when life is at its toughest, you inwardly trust that it will get easier. And when it is seemingly easy, you are half on the lookout for the next hidden problem. That\’s what makes existence interesting – provided you go with it all. The gift that is about to be given to you is one that it would be churlish to turn down. Don\’t accidentally mistake it for an unwelcome imposition


Anyway I hope you are all well and I will write again soon.

Love Me xxxxxx

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