Intersections and Waiting at the Lights – (a poem by my late husband)

October 27, 2007 at 1:29 am (Poetry, Uncategorized) ()


Every minute and unremarkable moment of my life, my heart has sought that which I could not find.

Knowing with an uncanny conviction that somewhere, someplace or time, that person existed and even then that our destiny was sealed in a bond unbreakable and pure, beyond the things that destroy and defile love and life.

At times though we despaired, and lost our hope and faith in ourselves; we grasped for warmth where only petty salesmen traded in our dreams and tried to extract love where only recompense was to be had. A temporary comfort – a trinket that would corrode and finally collapse, going the way of all other ephemerals.

It has been a long journey my love, but we have finally found each other.

We have arrived, to stay, home.


by Steven Naseef (RIP)


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For all my new visitors that don’t know…

October 26, 2007 at 6:30 pm (Cats)


Fluffybutt is my grey cats name. I named my blog after her because it was cute.

Truffles is my black cats name. She is younger than Fluffy.

I love them both.

They are my little comforts at times when I feel blue.

Since I told my partner to leave Truffles has been sleeping on his pillow. (see photo and she hates having her photo taken)

What a cutie.

If you have pets, enjoy in their beauty, love their funny little personalities and take comfort in their gentle natures. Never be cruel to them. They don\’t deserve it.

Animals are wonderful. I love all animals.

If we didn\’t have them what would the world be like?


Love Me xxxx

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My new poem untitled as yet

October 23, 2007 at 6:17 pm (Poetry)

The remnants of your belongings remain here

So please come and collect them my dear

For what is now lost can never be found

In the darkness of the underground

I’ve grieved alone and day became night

You brought the sun back, my perfect light

But perfection is hard to find

When betrayal takes over ones mind

It drains the soul right out of you

And kills those that loved you too

Like sewerage LIES seeped through your cracks

And now I know we can never go back

For what is done cannot be changed

And someones heart cannot be rearranged

You say you love me more than Jesus

Well, actions speak louder than words I guess

Commitment is not in your nature, history has proven it so

Please tell all your girlfriends this, so you don’t break anymore hearts as you go

Love Me xxxxxx


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So officially single again…

October 21, 2007 at 12:02 am (Uncategorized)


Hey guys slow down let me recover from this one first! hahahaha

Well, I can\’t go into too much detail here but I asked my \”special friend\” to move out.

There have been lots of emotional talks etc over the last couple of days so that is why I haven\’t really been in touch with anyone.

I just wanted to chill out after such a difficult time.

But hey, I am still alive and kicking aren\’t I!

And yes I am a bit hurt but that will heal given time.

Its not the end of the world for me but the beginning of another adventure. Hopefully a better one!

The best thing is that I know it was nothing I did or didn\’t do.

And since he couldn\’t make a decision I made one for him.

And I would rather be a bit lonely than be lied to any more.

Thanks all of you for sending me such lovely messages.

Perhaps now I will be able to get back to my poetry and artwork without it all being about him.

Love Me xxxx

(pinched this gorgeous photo off

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I haven’t had time….

October 16, 2007 at 4:59 pm (Uncategorized)


to thank all of those that have sent me private messages and commented on my last very brief post.
But I promise I will catch up with you over the weekend.
Thank you to everyone for your well wishes and love.
I truly appreciate everyones comments and messages.
Anyway am posting the most recent photo I have of me taken on Saturday night.
Love everyone…
Much thanks again.

Love Me xxxxx

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No Everyone I Am Not Leaving You….

October 15, 2007 at 11:47 pm (Uncategorized)

Maybe some details later…Maybe not….hahahahahahaha

love Me xxxx

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About my last post…

October 6, 2007 at 6:08 pm (Uncategorized)

What I really was asking I guess, is if you are already in a relationship or marriage, is having an online affair really an affair??

I don’t think there is anything wrong with looking for love on dating websites if you are single. I have done it myself. I didn’t find what I was looking for but I know a few people who have met and married from being on sites like RSVP.

However I do think online affairs are a form of betrayal. BUT it is very very easy to get drawn in to having a relationship like this online.

I am not talking about flirting here. I am talking about actually telling someone you have never met that you love them.

1. It is exciting because you don’t really know each other so you can fantasize all you like.

2. It doesn’t really seem real.

3. In most cases it will never actually move on to anything more, especially if you are in different countries.

In one way online affairs are quite safe, lets face it, you can lie to each other about almost everything and neither would know, unless you decide to take it a step further and meet.

I think if your partner or you feel the need to have an online affair there is something wrong with your relationship in some way. And it may be something you can fix.

But I also think there is a huge difference between an online affair and a ‘real’ affair unless it moves to the next level and does become real.

I could say so much more on this subject.

I do like to keep an open mind. I think if people would communicate more in their relationships this wouldn’t happen as much.

But I would advise anyone before they embark on an online affair to really think about what they are doing.

Are you willing to risk ending the relationship you are in for someone you don’t even know? Is it worth that. I guess that is what you need to ask yourself. And don’t ever think the other person won’t be hurt by it. They will be.

Love Me xxxx

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Interesting Article…

October 4, 2007 at 11:34 pm (Uncategorized)…

What do you think about online affairs?

Do you think there is a future in these relationships?

Or do people just get disappointed when they finally do meet?

Love Me xxxxxxxx

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