Two Weeks of SNAFU…

August 31, 2007 at 6:35 pm (Uncategorized)

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Well no one said life was meant to be easy but its been a strain the last couple of weeks.

Work is stifling and micro managment has set in. Arguements with superiors ensue and all is up shit creek.

My darling sisters have finally sent my lawyer a letter stating that they intend to go to the Supreme Court and have my mothers will overturned on the basis that she was not of capacity to make the will and she was under undue pressure to do so.

How they intend to actually prove this I am not sure as all the doctors I ever took my mother too knew she knew exactly what she wanted.

However saying all that I know I am still much better off than so many people, so I am thankful for that even though I have been quite stressed.

I am lucky I have a man that loves me and great friends.

And two beautiful pussycats even though one has been running up the phone bill lately! hahaha

Today the sun is shining and the sky is blue and the jasmine on my front step is blooming and its the first day of Spring downunder so I should be thankful for that.

My last and final comment is about my last poem. I think it is sad and pathetic that there are women out there who can\’t find their own man so have to try and steal someone elses.

All my life my I have never been able to bring myself to interfere in someone elses relationship. Once I found out a man was taken I would not throw myself at him or indeed show any romantic interest in him or flirt with him. Even if he behaved as if he was interested in me and I really liked him I would tell him to think of his partner.

I have too much respect for other human beings behave in any other way.

That is all for now. I am doing some drawings so will be back soon with them.

 

Love Me xxxxxxxxxx

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A Poem that I know other women out there will relate to…

August 25, 2007 at 5:29 pm (Poetry)

You may think you’re something special when he tells you something sweet

But he would do no less to a person on the street

You may think you’re on his mind in the darkness of the night

But it’s me he’s lying next to cuddling so tight

You may think you know him by your talks on the phone

But I’m the one that knows his scent, his touch and sexy moan

You may think you’re more attractive and that you’re more his kind

But I am here to tell you that out of sight is out of mind

Because I’m the one he loves deep down and with all his heart

I’m the one he sees every day and that is just the start

He would rather be with me than with you anyday

I know cause we’ve discussed it and he chose to stay.

 

Love Me xxxxxx

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Why this person means so much to me…

August 12, 2007 at 3:49 am (Uncategorized)

Most of my life has not been difficult. I had a pretty good childhood with loving parents that treated me very well.

After High School I went to Art College and studied Film and Media.

These were very good times, crazy, uninhibited, creative days.

After that I drifted from thing to thing, from man to man, doing artwork whenever I could for whomever I could or just myself.

In 1989 I met my future husband.

No one could have ever prepared me for the next sixteen years of my life with him.

Like a rollercoaster ride but much more dangerous. He was a troubled man, but had a beautiful soul. Which is why I stayed with him for such a long time.

Cut to 2003. We were living with my mother who was 82 at this time.

One morning my husband found her on the floor of her bedroom. She had a stroke.

Then my husbands brother became sick and passed away in Febuary 2004.

After being in hospital for 4 months my mother finally came back to live with us. She had lost her speech and mobility.

In August 2004 my father passed away. He had been in a nursing home for five years and had senile dementia and parkinsons disease.

My husband had a great deal of trouble dealing with all his grief over his brother and began to drink very heavily. By August 2005 he too passed away.

In December of the same year my mothers health began to decline. I was caring for her but had to take her to hospital on New Years Day 2006. She passed away around 2 weeks later.

I was left alone in a house an hour from the city/work and friends.

So I made the decision to leave that house and move back to the city. Life seemed to be getting better.

But in May I discovered a lump in my breast and had to have surgery in June. Thankfully it was not cancer.

I went out with a few men, here and there but nothing ever really worked out.

I was lonely, ever since my mother died my family stopped speaking to me because she left her house to me in her will.

My wonderful neighbour and work colleague, along with her partner and my friends of course had become my family.

But still something was missing from my life. I kept looking but still it elluded me.

Sometimes the best things are right under our nose and we fail to see it until it is too late. We keep searching for something that is already there and we need look no further.

It was just after my birthday in Jan 07 when I had a dream about a boy I knew that worked part time in our campus bookshop. I didn’t know that much about him, except he was sweet and friendly and gave great hugs. Everytime I walked past the bookshop, if we saw each other we waved and if both had time we would have a quick chat.

Anyway, one day I told him about my dream and now the rest is, you could say, history.

He is like the sun on a dark day. He made me feel a way I never thought I would feel again.

Then I found out how talented he was.

He brings so much joy to my life. I lived through so much darkness for so long, I have much to thank him for.

His love and passion for his music is something that is relfected in my love and passion in my artwork.

He has become my family, my inspiration, my love.

So I say thank you to this beautiful person in my life. Thank you Paul.

P.S. I took this photo of him in our backyard a couple of weeks ago. Its playful, just like him.

Love Me xxxxxxxxxxx

P.P.S. It is his birthday on the 14th so I will be taking him away for the night to a special place.

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Okay…

August 11, 2007 at 4:30 pm (Uncategorized)

Where the hell have the comments in my comments box gone from the last three weeks?

And also where the hell is my mail from the last three weeks, its all gone?!?!?!

Yahoo what is going on here???

WTF!

Ooookay got some mail back but lost more comments!!!!

Now mail has disappeared again!!!

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Yep that’s a description of me for sure…

August 10, 2007 at 2:38 am (Uncategorized)

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LOL.

Love Me xxxxx

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Hey all my friends and visitors…

August 6, 2007 at 11:51 pm (Uncategorized)

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I have just set up a blog at WordPress.

The WordPress blog will only be for Poetry and Artwork and serious stuff.

I am not going to stop writing this blog, and most of the poetry and artwork will still appear here. So don\’t worry.

And for those of you that don\’t want to work their way through this blog to find my previous poetry posts and artwork, all of it will be in categories there so easy to find.

This is the address.

(This wordpress site has now been deleted. But I am going to start one up on deviant art very soon) updated 17/11/07

But I have just started it so it will be growing.

Love Me xxxx

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Borrowed from icanhascheezburger.com…

August 6, 2007 at 3:34 pm (LOL cats)

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Just soooooo cute I had to post it.

Have a great day, whatever day it is wherever you are.

Love Me xxxxx

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You guessed it, once again its Crazy Doodle Time

August 4, 2007 at 4:35 pm (Art, Doodles, Drawing)

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Here is one of my latest crazy doodles.

Drawn during a staff meeting at work.

Usually I would get rid of the text that I doodle around, but I thought I would leave it in this time.

I may get rid of it later and colour it in or something who knows.

Love Me xxxxxx

P.S. Everything is fine with my boy, thanks to those of you who asked.

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